The first account of an obsessive-compulsive disorder where not compulsive actions, but obsessive thoughts dictate life. "Let me say this right away: I only wash my hands when they are dirty. I don’t check locks, I’m not particularly tidy, nor do I hoard things. I belong to the group of OCD patients whose compulsive actions occur covertly (only in my head)." With this clarification, successful journalist Ellen Mersdorf (pseudonym) begins her story. Typically, obsessive-compulsive disorder is only associated with compulsive actions. Obsessions whose effects occur "only" in the mind are not recognized as such by those affected and are not diagnosed by professionals. An engaging and entertaining report that inspires courage.