An account of a drug-induced psychosis - but also more than that: An insider's view of the Goa scene, a subjective portrayal of psychotic episodes, and a look at the limitations of professional intervention and family support. It is also an inspiring book that conveys hope. At the age of 18, Florian Reisewitz comes into contact with the Goa scene, where influences from the 68 movement merge with trance techno music and drug use. At the parties, he soon begins to regularly consume drugs such as ecstasy, speed, and LSD. After warning signs like paranoia and horror trips, he experiences the first of three psychotic episodes. The book is a very personal account of the delusional and depressive symptoms, psychiatric hospital stays, issues with medication, and suicidal thoughts. At the same time, it is a story of tireless support.