I can't sit still when there is so much joy inside me. Joy that bounces around in my inner being like a rubber ball. I would love to jump up and clap my hands. Or spin around in circles, just like I used to do as a little girl. I don't know how to express joy without bouncing around. When I'm happy, I'm excited. And when I'm excited, I have to move; I can't keep my hands and feet still. In her book, Sabine Kiefner describes everyday situations from the perspective of an autistic person. These are personal experiences from her childhood and youth, where she repeatedly feels that she is different, feels like a stranger, and searches for explanations, which she only finds at the age of 47 in the diagnosis of autism. Alongside memories of the past, the author provides insights into her life in the present moments.