When you intentionally become pregnant, the happiest time of your life begins - usually. Many are familiar with the low that follows childbirth, known as postpartum depression. However, even during pregnancy, the supposed joy of having a baby, an expectant mother can experience constant tension: Isabella realizes only in "different circumstances" that her relationship is anything but stable. Not only that, she also has to confront fundamental questions that are completely new to her: What does her ideal family look like? Can she find her own position as a woman and, above all, as a mother for her child? And what gives her life meaning? This narrative non-fiction book, with biographical elements, reveals the hidden opportunity for growth within a deep crisis, expressed in an honest and straightforward manner. As a stress and burnout prevention consultant, Susanne Ertle shares this story.