Several years after the tragic death of her mother, Alexandra Senfft brings her family's past to life. Her grandfather, Hanns Ludin, was a high-ranking Nazi who died by hanging. It is the strong women in this family who have woven the web of repression. And it is the strong women who tear it apart: the mother through her misunderstood suffering, the daughter with this moving book, in which she sensitively and courageously describes how the unprocessed past burdens her family. The SA man Hanns Ludin was Hitler's envoy in Slovakia and was responsible for the deportation of Jews in this position. In 1947, he was executed as a war criminal. His descendants continue to argue about his role in World War II to this day, feeling torn between guilt and loyalty. Alexandra S. describes this with sensitivity and courage.