Eating is far from a simple topic for Nadja, as she suffers from bulimia. Every meal is an emotional rollercoaster. Feelings such as anger, disappointment, and helplessness are also compensated for through food. Nadja sets very high expectations for herself, which she cannot always meet. Through her eating disorder, she gains a certain degree of control - control over herself and her body. However, this inevitably leads to a loss of control, and Nadja falls into depression. Eventually, she confronts her illness, goes to a clinic, and seeks help. Now she is learning how to break free step by step from the vicious cycle of eating, suppressed emotions, and depression. Her ultimate goal: to live one day without her best friend, bulimia. The impressive diary of a bulimic - a deeply personal insight into life.