The NYT bestseller and the selection of the Zoella & Friends Book Club 2017 by Juno Dawson. You may still be living in alternate universes, Theo, but I live in the real world where you have an open funeral this morning. I know you’re out there listening. And you should know that I’m really disappointed because you swore you would never die, and yet here we are. It hurts even more because this isn’t the first promise you’ve broken. Griffin lost his first love in a drowning accident. Theo was his best friend, his ex-boyfriend, and the one he believed he would end up with. Now, overwhelmed by grief and worsening OCD, Griffin turns to an unexpected person for help: Theo’s new boyfriend. But as their relationship becomes increasingly complicated, dangerous truths come to light. Griffin must make a choice: confront the past or miss out on the future.