Pain, as the Dalai Lama once said, is inevitable. Suffering depends on the decision. Pauline C. Frei has made her choice: to look, to integrate. Was it worth it? Read for yourself. This book contains poems, texts, and images about life, death, and healing. Organized into ten chapters, each featuring an introductory text by Michaela Huber, it includes poems by Pauline C. Frei. These texts cover a wide spectrum, starting from the discovery of writing as a means of expression, through coping with everyday life under the shadow of a severe, incurable illness, to themes such as letting go, death, love, courage, and hope. With this book, I have the great opportunity to say: Trauma is not an eternal stigma that clings hopelessly and helplessly to a person, like something that will never change.