Dealing with an incurably ill family member and the external expectations that make the suffering even worse. For five years, Katrin Seyfert accompanied her husband through his Alzheimer's disease. He was in his early 50s when he received the diagnosis, a doctor and father of five children. She organized family life, managed the finances, and coordinated the caregiving services. Finally, the funeral. She speaks candidly and brutally honestly about what it’s like when a partner gradually loses their language and, with it, their identity. She grapples with the role assigned to her first as a caregiving wife and then as a widow. And she finds her own way to come to terms with the void her husband left behind. Life hit hard, and with her writings, she strikes back: against conventions, against taboos, against self-denial.