Here I am, battered, mistreated, in a foreign land, with an old woman. She secretly provides me shelter and takes care of me. During my escape from the apartment, I could only take the bare essentials of clothing. I feel the pain and the threat coming from the man I once loved, with whom it was supposed to be so beautiful - but he soon showed me his true face. Now he is searching for me. I am supposed to go back to him. I have tarnished his honor. Fear tightens my throat - what if he finds me? My adult children are desperately waiting for me to come home to finally be safe in Germany. I reflect on the last few years. Much has already indicated that I was in great danger, in this picturesque place by the sea, a paradise on earth, which I shared with a monster... A novel based on true events.