From the very beginning, death has determined her life: when Maggie O'Farrell nearly died from an unknown viral infection at the age of 8. When, at 15, she made a foolish mistake out of recklessness and a desire for freedom. When she had a deeply disturbing encounter in the idyllic Lake District. Or when she nearly died giving birth to her first daughter in an understaffed clinic with incompetent staff. At various places and times, death guided Maggie O'Farrell's life. Her profound, extraordinary story raises existential questions: How would I act if I were in deadly danger? What would be at stake for me? And, not least, who would I be afterward? "I Am, I Am, I Am" is a book that leaves you with a new sense of vulnerability, feeling that each new heartbeat matters.