An idealistic young Catholic decides to become a priest, unaware of what awaits him in this training: a world full of hypocrisy and double standards. Bühling reports on the parallel world of the seminary, where homosexuality is suppressed yet acted out, and where psychoses, delusions, and substance abuse are commonplace. Why do cases of abuse seem to be disproportionately prevalent in the church? Why does the Catholic Church have such a strong attraction for homosexuals? And why is a significant number of priests psychologically unstable and at risk of addiction, when these individuals are supposed to be a support for others? Daniel Bühling has the courage to report for the first time from within the Catholic Church and does not shy away from asking openly critical questions and shedding light on them from his own experience.