"Brütt." For Friederike Mayröcker, it symbolizes pain and hardness, coldness and sorrow. Were it not for the "sighing gardens," which provide a gentle counterbalance to the feelings of love she carefully explores. But did the relationship with Joseph truly take place, or is it merely a figment of her imagination, a pure wishful thinking? In the frenzy of love, certainty is never tangible. Nevertheless, the author is able to organize her diffuse states of soul, give names to her feelings, and trace the inexplicable. With her unmistakable precision of language, she gradually uncovers the fragile core of love, thereby freeing herself from the chains of the unspeakable. In a poignant self-study, Friederike Mayröcker accounts for a love in which joy, happiness, doubt, and pain equally belong to the "beautiful storytelling.".