When was the last time you completely withdrew from your everyday life? When was the last time you were unreachable - neither for your boss, partner, or friends? When was the last time you were entirely alone with yourself? A Vipassana retreat has strict rules. The goal is to experience oneself without any external distractions. With up to ten hours of meditation daily, one dives deep into their physical and emotional sensations to learn to see things as they truly are. Buddha is said to have attained enlightenment this way 2500 years ago. He recognized the cause of happiness and unhappiness. The author dares to experiment and embarks on a journey into the self. What he brought back has changed his life. But differently than expected. The question remains, what can men who stare at rough wallpaper see?.