From the mirror on the wall, the evil queen Anorexia spoke to me: "You are not the fairest and smartest in the whole land! You are too fat!" I took the words of the evil queen to heart and ate less and less until I was very thin and very sick. "Too fat! Too thin! As punishment, you shall now also be disturbed!" The evil queen cast voices into my head. Now she could access my thoughts and control me anytime and anywhere... At 14, Sabine Henkes (23) fled from her sheltered home for half a school year to the other side of the world, to New Zealand. She wanted to escape the serious illnesses and death in her family. But the pull of anorexia had already taken hold of her. On her (mis)adventures through seven psychiatric clinics, psychotherapy, and the only sustainably helpful therapy with horses, she must painfully realize: The dream of T.