Some events are so painful for our soul that we can no longer remember them. Why have I forgotten my past? I wanted to survive! But suppressing the horror was only the debut of a new nightmare: PTSD! Stella König is ill. Seriously ill. She suffers from post-traumatic stress disorder. Yet she refuses to admit this for a long time. In this book, she takes her readers on a journey of recognition and acceptance. With admirable honesty and easily understandable language, she guides her audience to the origins of her suffering and from there back to life. She describes the apparent facades behind which she had hidden for far too long and the terrible torments that mental illnesses bring. Stella König encourages her readers. Mental illnesses are not.