The author recounts his life, which was marked by addiction and anxiety. He describes in impressively honest terms how it all came about and how he dealt with it. The reader gains an insightful glimpse behind the scenes of the drug scene, learns about the fears and struggles of those affected, and discovers many details about individual drugs, their consumption techniques, and effects. Additionally, the author discusses the currently practiced therapies for addiction disorders and critically engages with them. He addresses his acquired anxiety disorder and questions the therapeutic options available. Ultimately, he succeeds in developing his own concept for therapy and healing.