At the age of just 17, the author decided to leave her parents' house, which was only outwardly perfect, behind in order to stand on her own two feet. A fateful but independent life began, often with more depths than heights. When she had hardly any strength left to fight on due to a private bankruptcy, and her partner apparently led a double life, she received the incredible news that her mother had been cruelly killed. After years of uncertainty, it was clear: someone she had blindly trusted up to that point was the client for the murder. This biography aims to show that no fate in life can be so bad as to give up oneself and one's dreams.