Alexander J. Probst suffers the most terrible fate that can befall a child at the renowned Catholic boarding school of the Regensburger Domspatzen: at just eight years old, he is repeatedly abused. Abused by those who preach virtue. Among those responsible is Georg Ratzinger, the cathedral choirmaster and brother of the later Pope Benedict XVI. It is only when Alexander confides in his father at the age of eleven that he is freed. For many years, he suppresses the trauma he endured, but just before his 50th birthday, he collapses. He decides to demand justice. Once again, he must endure trauma—this time through denial and defamation. But Alexander J. Probst does not give up and forces the Church to the negotiating table. As the first victim, he reveals in this book his entire story of suffering and its consequences. Unflinchingly and provocatively, he sheds light on the situation.