The mother of a son with mental illness and his sister jointly share their experiences of the upheavals caused by his psychological crises. Through letters and short texts, we learn about the feeling of losing oneself, the act of caring, sitting around in psychiatric wards, the underlying accusations from the caregivers, and the horror and speechlessness in the face of suicidal risks. A whole family structure falls apart yet comes together again. It offers a literary, honest insight into the emotional experiences of relatives.