In this book, Melanie Köbke, a diagnosed borderline personality, takes the reader by the hand and guides them with touching, expressive words through her inner world as a child and an adult, resembling a ride on waves between despair and hope, a struggle against and for the world. Captivating diary entries, based on notes taken during inpatient psychotherapy, as well as poems and short stories, create a unique and profoundly personal portrait.