Nigel Owens reveals how personal crisis and coming out reshaped rugby's bravest referee into a figure of resilience and honesty. Nigel Owens is one of the best referees in world rugby. Before reaching the highest echelons of the game, he went through a personal crisis and came out as gay, becoming the first to do so in the macho world of professional rugby. His bravery earned him great respect from players, officials, and supporters alike. In this warm, funny, and painfully honest autobiography, he speaks frankly about his struggle to accept himself for who he was, leading to attempted suicide, bulimia, and steroid addiction. Owens also recounts many amusing incidents from rugby matches, foreign trips, and his off-field career as an entertainer.